4/20/20
Today 4/20/20 I had to put one of my best friends down. She was 16 years of age maybe older... and it devastated me.
I’ve flooded my Facebook with feeds about her and even on Instagram. I needed a place to write where I didn’t feel like I was over doing it with my grief.
Mele, was one of my best friends. Simple. She was there for my ups and downs. Always patient. Enjoyed the hikes, long walks, cuddles, smothering and eventually the ear pulling, and hugs from the kids.
As franklin and I grew our family, our focus and attention was less on Mele and Kayla and more on the two legged kiddos. I feel guilt. I didn’t walk them enough, didn’t take them out for car rides, didn’t sit with her enough... didn’t do things. Regardless she was solid. Enjoyed her life when we moved from Hawaii to Texas. Basically became a senior citizen in her retirement .
I told her I loved her. If I was home I made sure she was at least in the same room... but I wished I showed her my love even more. She was not just the best dog ever... she was my memory keeper. Such great memories we shared.
I still remember the day I met her and how I cried because I didn’t think we were going to be chosen since she was great with the other couple with the kids.
Still remember how I didn’t think she barked
Still remember how she kept me company those nights that I couldn’t sleep when I was pregnant with Ellie and Thomas. These memories make me cry because I miss her.
Today when I was preparing myself to take her to the vet, queens song kept playing in my head
https://youtu.be/sUJkCXE4sAA
This is how I feel.
I’ve flooded my Facebook with feeds about her and even on Instagram. I needed a place to write where I didn’t feel like I was over doing it with my grief.
Mele, was one of my best friends. Simple. She was there for my ups and downs. Always patient. Enjoyed the hikes, long walks, cuddles, smothering and eventually the ear pulling, and hugs from the kids.
As franklin and I grew our family, our focus and attention was less on Mele and Kayla and more on the two legged kiddos. I feel guilt. I didn’t walk them enough, didn’t take them out for car rides, didn’t sit with her enough... didn’t do things. Regardless she was solid. Enjoyed her life when we moved from Hawaii to Texas. Basically became a senior citizen in her retirement .
I told her I loved her. If I was home I made sure she was at least in the same room... but I wished I showed her my love even more. She was not just the best dog ever... she was my memory keeper. Such great memories we shared.
I still remember the day I met her and how I cried because I didn’t think we were going to be chosen since she was great with the other couple with the kids.
Still remember how I didn’t think she barked
Still remember how she kept me company those nights that I couldn’t sleep when I was pregnant with Ellie and Thomas. These memories make me cry because I miss her.
Today when I was preparing myself to take her to the vet, queens song kept playing in my head
https://youtu.be/sUJkCXE4sAA
This is how I feel.
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