Love of my Life

Today I tried looking for pictures of Mele on my computer.  For some reason, last week my computer decided to do an update and thus... deleted my old photos so... I am a bit devastated.  I know I have those pictures somewhere. Placed her paw prints in the rooms I venture into most... I sure miss her presence... and wish I could just bend down and pat her head or give her a kiss. Leaving some memories here so I don't forget. A photo that popped up on my timeline.

Today 4/20/20 I had to put one of my best friends down.  She was 16 years of age maybe older... and it devastated me. I’ve flooded my Facebook with feeds about her and even on Instagram.  I needed a place to write where I didn’t feel like I was over doing it with my grief. Mele, was one of my best friends.  Simple.  She was there for my ups and downs.  Always patient.  Enjoyed the hikes, long walks, cuddles, smothering and eventually the ear pulling, and hugs from the kids. As franklin and I grew our family, our focus and attention was less on Mele and Kayla and more on the two legged kiddos. I feel guilt.  I didn’t walk them enough, didn’t take them out for car rides, didn’t sit with her enough... didn’t do things.  Regardless she was solid.  Enjoyed her life when we moved from Hawaii to Texas.  Basically became a senior citizen in her retirement . I told her I loved her.  If I was home I made sure she was at least in the sa...